Missing Friends Who Are Not Here In MS & Longing To Get Out Of Mississippi

Hey Ya'll,

okay so I just wanted to say...... DON'T LET A MOMENT PASS YOU BY, Every moment we have with our friends we have now are quickly fading to memories, so please dont let a moment pass you by. Live every moment of every day, yesterday is gone, live for today, tomorrow is not guareented, so live each day and live ito to the fullest.

That's what I'm trying to do now, because friends we love dearly are quickly coming and going in our lives, we need to live for each moment we have with them, because before we know it they will be gone and they will just be a past memory.

Right now I'm living for my last few days with my friends Heather & Jason, we dont have but just a few more days with them before they are gone, it's hard to believe they are almost gone, time has flown by so quickly, they leave in 5 more days. LIVE FOR THE MOMENTS!!!

Jo Jo is gone now, I lived for every moment I had with him that night at pizza inn, It's still hard to believe he is gone, but I'm excited for him that hes not having to be stuck here in Mississippi but I'm praying he is going to come back some day and be with us again here in This Beautiful State Of Mississippi.

I'm sitting here thinking about how great it would be to get up a trip once I can save up the money and make a big round trip around the world to see friends and family I haven't seen in a long time and friends and family that I dont get to see very much. I'm working on saving up so I can one day do that. I am longing to get out of this state and do something different for a little while, go experience different parts of the world I haven't been to. I miss the trips we use to take every spring break to gulfshores before my aunt died, the trips we took to nashville every summer, I miss my dads buissness trips, those were the good times I look back on now. Man how I Miss those good times. I want to travel the world every summer again, I really miss traveling the world, We haven't done that in a really long time.

So if you get the chance, do like my cousin Brad and travel the world and see the world and enjoy the beauty of this world!! Live for every moment of it!! Capture the moments!!

I'm missing a lot of my friends right now who aren't here with us in Mississippi anymore, I wish they would come back, I miss them a lot right now, I really do, I cant tell you how much I miss a lot of them, friends such as my friend Heather in Georgia, I miss her like crazy, It hasn't been easy being here without her, I miss our snail mail letters we use to write every month for the longest time, I miss the times we laughed together, all the things we use to do together back home in Clarksdale, I cant tell you how much I wish she was here in Jackson with me.

I look for her to come sometime during the summer to Mississippi, atleast I hope she does, I'm going to try to plan on doing something with her if she does, I'm going to take some personal time off work when she's here, I miss her a lot. This place is getting lonely without a lot of my friends who are gone now, things just aren't the same around here anymore. Just about everybody my age is gone, getting out of Mississippi, I'm longing to get out of here, I cant wait to eventually get out of here, dont know when that might be but I want to eventually talk to my mom about getting out of here and maybe going to TN because there just isn't anything here for me anymore other than my doctors other than that everybody is gone, I've the worst time getting my mom to understand that, she doesn't understand that there aren't a whole lot of people my age I use to know left here, they are all gone, everybody is getting out of here and getting on with their lives.

If my cousin Mollie and I are right about those who once couldn't wait to get out of Mississippi find themselves longing for the unique beauty of Mississippi and find themslves wanting to come back home, I'm suprised my friend Heather hasn't wanted to come back yet. Gosh she's been gone for 9 years and it's obvious now that she's not coming back to live here.

Thats the thing I'm just starting to realize that a lot of people who have left aren't coming back, I hate it, I miss them so much with all of my heart, I miss them more than they will ever ever know. I pray they come home someday.

I'm trying to find things to do with my time, there just isn't much to do with my time anymore, i'm getting tired of Mississippi, There isn't much to do anymore, it's getting hard for me to keep a job here, I dont think I'm going to be able to hold out a job here for too much longer without a college degree. Yea I hang out with some highschool people but I dont have much a choice these days,
If it wasn't for my bestfriend Joey in California, I wouldn't have some of those friends who are in highschool, he's the reason I have those friends and I'm thankful for every moment I get with them.

My mom keeps sayin stuff about you need to find friends your own age, WHAT FRIENDS.... SHOW ME WHAT FRIENDS MY AGE THERE ARE HERE IN JACKSON,MS WHAT 1 OR 2 AT THE MOST, there's nobody my age left here, they are all gone, Anthony lambert is gone to oklahoma, Ashley Oliver is gone to Virginia, laura creekmore is gone to school in hattiesburg, casey frazier is in new zealand, James is going to school in clinton and working when hes not at school or either he's trying to get gigs booked some where, Joey is in California, Lindsay and I dont talk anymore because she's on drugs, Sean from school is in school St.paul,Minneapolis, patrick from school lives with his dad in minneapolis, my friend Elaina from crossgates moved to Oregan with her family, heather woolfolk allen is going to be leaving us shortly moving back to baton rouge,la, so I dont know what my mom thinks I'm suppose to do, because I mean my friend Megan from crossgates is at school in clinton too and is working at 93.5 during the week, but I'm not really friends with megan she's just somebody I new at crossgates, I never really felt included around her.

at CrossGates these days you want find anyone my age, no one my age is at crossgates anymore, they all left. I mean my friend Alex is on the road on tour managing our friends band Jonezetta. So I don't know where here in Jackson im going to find anyone my age. does anyone understand where I'm coming from, Everyone my age is gone if they aren't in clinton at MC the rest are gone. I mean I just don't know what I'm going to do with my life here in Mississippi anymore, because there isn't much of anything left here for me, once you get to be this age, thats when it gets to be time to go and get out of here because there's nothing left to offer us. I'm not going to have a job a whole lot longer. I gotta do something I just dont know what and I've got to figure out, I just know it's time to go...

Anyways, Well that's gonna wrap this post up for now, I just had to express how I feel and get it all out. I'll talk to ya'll Later!! God Bless & Have A Good Week!!

here are the following song lyrics that has to do with what we are all going through here in Jackson,Ms with everyone leaving us and not understand why and not understand why life has to be so complicated, asking questions so here they are:

It's called GOD ONLY KNOWS BY: JOY WILLIAMS

You're in one of those seasonsEverything seems to go so wrongWish I could give you a reasonBut even I'm barely holding onWhen it's hard to find the answersLet this be your hope

God only knows all your broken piecesOnly He knows what you're going throughGod only knows what you hide insideAnd He's holding onto youGod only knows

You've had your fill of questionsThere's so much that you need to knowI don't blame you for askingBut it's time to let go of controlAnd I'm sorry for what you're feelingPlease hold on to this hope

Come on, come on, He knows your painCome on, come on, hold onto faithCome on, come on, you're on your wayMy friend, your struggle has an ending dayOnly He knowsOnly He knowsOnly He knows

TAKE A LITTLE TIME TO ENJOY MY MISSISSIPPI DELTA & THE BEAUTIFUL STATE OF MISSISSIPPI

Hey Ya'll,


So Yesterday was quit a day, we did not get off to a very good start at all, I had not had any sleep at all friday night, I was up all night in pain because of the root canal I had done on wednesday and the dentist missed the fact that there was an infection in there some how, I dont know how he missed that on the x-ray, Anyway, so we called the dentist and he was dissappointed because he said everything supposedly looked good on the x-ray, he called me in something immediately for pain and some antibotics for the infection, so I was pretty much misserable all day because the pain medicine was making me sleepy and make me feel really out of it, on top of that I was feeling nausiated. We had to wait on my perscription to get ready before we could get on the road HOME TO THE DELTA!! We finally got on the road at 10:30am to be exact, of course that was my prediction a couple of days before I said between 10:00am and 10:30am and we were on the road at 10:30am.

So just to make things a little more complicated getting home to the delta, we got lost on the natchez trace, we were going the wrong way for an hour on the natchez, we were heading towards tupelo on the natchez, we should have only been on the natchez for 20 minutes, we were told we could get on the natchez and get on 49 that way, some how we missed our turn on to 49, so we finally got turned around and headin in the right direction, finally got on 49 and headed out of town home to the delta. So which put us an hour late getting to the birthday party in greenville, we were suppose to be there at 1pm, we didn't get there til 1:45pm. Luckily we didn't miss anything except a little bowling fun!! ha!!

So we were excited to finally make it to Greenville and we had quit a day!!

so I had the opportunity to return home to The Beautiful MS DELTA Yesterday, I was very excited about the opportunity to get to spend most of my day there out door exploring The Beautiful Mississippi Delta and shooting some photos of the beautiful delta. I was excited to get to get away and go do some site seeing and spend the day with my family who lives in Nashville who are here for the weekend. We got the chance to visit with our friend Trudy Collins who came and met us at The Greenville Mall where we went to hang out for a little while, while we spent the afternoon and evening out on the town and around the delta.

So Here are just a few of the places where I was doing some photo shoots lastnight and yesterday afternoon. I cant wait to get back and go do some more photo shoots.


Wyatt Waters painted those fish you see there in Greenville, I actually learned that from my art teacher my junior year in highschool.

Also, please take a little time to enjoy these beautiful song lyrics about Mississippi and PLEASE IF YOU LIVE IN MISSISSIPPI TAKE A LITTLE TIME TO ENJOY THE BEAUTY OF MISSISSIPPI As many are longing to get out, many who haved longed to get out and are out of Mississippi now and we all wish them well and hope that they will long to be back with us in Mississippi as many of us do find ourselves longing for mississippi, anyways,

here are the lyrics and I dedicate this song Mississippi's Cryin to my bestfriend who is in Cali now, I also dedicate it to my friend Kade who is leaving us in 3 months, To Everyone we love dearly who have left us here in this lonly state, The Reason I dedicate this song to them is because I want them to know we here back home in Mississippi are missing you dearly and we'll always miss you, We're cryin and dyin without you here, this place is lonely without here, this state is becoming an empty place without all of those who have left us, so this song pretty much goes out to everyone who has left us. We Love & Miss You!! Come Home Soon!! I agree with part of the lyrics about us figuring out that a lot of you who have left us aren't coming back, I think a lot of us here back home in Mississippi are realizing that right now, especially my friend Brittany, Me, I think thats hitting a lot of us hard right now. We miss Each & Every One Of You Who Have Left Us & We Love You!! This Song Goes To All Of You!!

Emily West - Mississippi's Cryin' lyrics

It keeps running down the tear-stained face of this lonely townAnd I drownAnd I keep reaching for one good reason why you said goodbyeAnd turned aroundOh your leavin’ me in this empty stateAnd all I see are dark clouds as you drive away

Mississippi’s cryin’ babyMississipi’s sadI think we just figured outThat you ain’t comin’ backThe sky can see you leavin’And it can’t hold back the tearsOh it’s pourin’ down and my heart thinks it’s dyin’Mississippi’s cryin’Mississippi’s cryin’

The night keeps looking for headlights shining in this drivewayBut they don’t shineAnd I keep thinkin’ this crazy storm will drive you homeBut not this timeOh my only wish is to change the weatherAre you comin’ back or is it gonna rain forever

Mississippi’s cryin’ babyMississipi’s sadI think we just figured outThat you ain’t comin’ backThe sky can see you leavin’And it can’t hold back the tearsOh it’s pourin’ down and my heart thinks it’s dyin’Mississippi’s cryin’Mississippi’s cryin’

Where you goin’ baby?What’s in Tennessee?You never said a word about MemphisSo who is she?

It keeps running down the tear-stained face of this lonely townAnd I drown

Mississippi’s cryin’ babyMississipi’s sadI think we just figured outThat you ain’t comin’ backThe sky can see you leavin’And it can’t hold back the tearsMississippi, MississippiMississippi’s cryin’Mississippi’s cryin’

My Life Flashed Before My Eyes Tonight.... Tomorrow Is Not Promised...

Hey Ya'll Okay, so tonight I'm writing to ya'll with a big heart, also very shook up. So Tonight my life flashed before my eyes and the carrie underwood song Jesus Take The Wheel played over and over in my head tonight as I was coming home from work. I've never been so scared in my life, well sense my wreck a year ago.

A Shooting almost took my life tonight, I never thought I would find myself saying that, I honestly never thought something like that would happen to me. There was a shooting on lakeland dr. tonight as I was heading home from work and as you all know I get off work at 9pm. I heard several shots fired going down lakeland dr and then the next thing I new two car loads of black guys drove up beside us hollering out their windows at each other what you gonna do man what you gonna do man, I was already scared because the shots were fired too close to our car, and as soon as I heard them hollering out their windows at each other, we floored it the rest of the way home.

I started thinking what if, what if I had been one more minute getting out the door leaving work, I dont even want to think about it, I was nearly shot and killed tonight, it can happen to anybody, dont ever say to yourself that will never happen to me, because you dont know that. It can happen any time any where. I new and still know that I could have been shot and killed tonight had I been one more minute getting out the door leaving work. I'm okay, my mom is fine, I'm just very shook up tonight. Ya know what gets me is Jeremy was talking about me workin til 10 on the weekends that I work, but now I dont know which Jeremy just said if you can let me know, I think I'm going to have to say no now that this happened, I didn't plan on almost getting killed tonight. I had no idea that when I walked out that door tonight that I might not be coming back.

In an experience like that, your life flashes before your eyes, before you even have time to think or blink.It just goes to show how fast things like this can happen. Guys & gals believe me, it can happen to you or anybody you know, it can happen real fast.

So WHATEVER YOU DO, STAY OFF OF LAKELAND DR. LATE AT NITE IF YOU CAN, If you dont absolutely have to be on the road, dont stay in and stay off of lakeland dr. at night, it's just not safe anymore. This is my second danger experience on lakeland dr. I had an experience last week.

Last thursday night on my way home from the rodeo, There were cops flying down lakeland dr. past us and one nearly running us off the road, they were running every red light down lakeland dr. last thursday night as we approached Dairy Queen on our way home, there were 6 or 7 cop cars in the parking lot of dairy queen and there were cops standing every where, they had a bunch of black guys in hand cuffs and had the trunk of a car open and they were searching the vehicle. It was all my mom could do to Swerve real quick and before one cop ran us off the road nearly causing a wreck, thank goodness that cop got on down the road without causing wrecks or hurting anybody.

Ya know Lakeland Dr. Hasn't ever been dangerous like this, We've never had a reason to be afraid on this side of town before until now. Lakeland Dr. is just becoming extremely dangerous at night. I was just talking to my dad about what happened, hes just as scared as I am, he's scared for me, but he also reminded me, that this can happen in broad open daylight, which is true, it can.

I was reminded of something tonight as I went through this horrifying experience tonight, that was said many times by ministers at crossgates baptist church where I use to go to church, I felt God protecting me tonight and God reminded me of something tonight, do you know where you're going when you walk out that door tonight and something was to happen to you, do you know where your going. I was reminded of that tonight I kept hearing that in my head over and over tonight.

Another thing I was reminded of is my bestfriends song Tomorrow, I also continuesly heard that song playing in my head tonight over and over and over. during the two songs that played in my head tonight and the one thing I was reminded of from church tonight, that was my life flashing before my eyes, believe it or not I was saying a prayer in my head that God would just get us home safe, I also know that That was God speaking to my heart tonight and protecting me, that was God's way of letting me know everything was going to be okay. God kept us safe tonight and I felt it, even through all my emotions and panicing, trying to stay calm, I was doing everything I could to remain calm.

I didn't get a good at those guys tonight, which is a good thing in this situation, I didn't care anything about getting a good look at any of them I just wanted to hurry up and get off of lakeland dr. and get home, I was scared to death, I've never been so scared in my life, I never thought for one minute, that when I left going to work tonight that I might not be coming home tonight, that thought never crosses anybodies mind, thats just not something you think about. Believe I found myself plenty of times every time I hear about a shooting, I find myself saying oh that will never happen to me that kind of thing doesn't happen around here, well thats not true, its does happen around here, it happens, it can happen any time any where, guys & gals this situation really makes you think.

If you're not sure about where you are in your relationship with christ, guys & gals its time to get it right now, not tomorrow not i'll do it later, but NOW.... NOW'S THE TIME, tomorrow is not promised, live every day as if it were your last, I realized tonight more than I have ever realized that before, Tonight I was reminded that tomorrow is not promised, tomorrow was not promised for me tonight, but thank goodness I'm still here!! PRAISE GOD FOR THAT, PRAISE GOD THAT I MADE IT HOME TONIGHT SAFELY!!! I WILL PRAISE GOD FOR THAT EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

I'm doing okay through all of this, I'm just very shook up, just glad my mom and I made it home tonight.Guys and Gals learn from me, I hope you have learned a lot from me now, I hope that God is speaking to you and working in your life through me.

Anyways, I wanted to share my story and my thoughts and feelings on tonight with all of you.I Love Ya'll!! Each and Every One Of You Are Such A Blessing To Me, I'm glad To Have You All In My Life!! God Bless Ya'll and I'm praying for each and every one of you now more than ever. Ya'll Have A Fantastic Week!! Love, Tara

AND WE'RE BACK ON THIS THING FINALLY....

Hello Family & Friends,

We're so glad to finally be back on this thing, it has taken quit some time to figure out this blogger deal, it never lets us sign in, but I think we got it this time....!! keep your fingers crossed!!!